i'm leaving my job again. i need a good reboot.

not gonna look for a new job just yet, making plans to travel, doing my math about the money thing.

money - it has become quite a huge issue for me. before i never even cared how much i earned and spent. now, it's almost always the first thing that comes to my head. god. i really don't like that. i need a crash course on wealth management/financial planning.

i haven't travelled for many years, it's good timing right now, consider how messy my life has become again. is it me or is it fate that i constantly walk myself into shitholes?

relationship-wise, it was disastrous. i have no idea where i am let alone where i am heading. totally fucked up. so it's giving me a very good excuse to walk away just for a little bit.

daddy gives me headache. we are having so different views on how to live life, which is driving me painfully crazy. how i wish i could teach him to love life better than he does now.

life is hard as it has been, still worth living. only i need to take a break from it for a while.

I usually know what I want and tend to freak out if I don't get it.

And I'm freaking out now.